think like a star.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

there are certain days,
when i will start thinking about them.
ignore the backstabbing, the bitching and all negative stuff,
i actually do miss them.
i miss the days most.

Saturday, January 19, 2008

this is good. =)

i found this a few days ago.
just clair said,
we're all stuck in that memory.
pardon that it's slanted. =)
i'm 12.
the only year, my number doesnt start with a 2. =)

Sunday, January 13, 2008

i dont remember letting anyone,
to step in and out of my life.

you were the only exception.
when you were here,
you always made me smile,
with all the silly things you did.
you made me feel like,
i was a small girl again.

the next moment,
you were gone.
you left me sitting there,
waiting endlessly for you.

a few months later,
you appeared in front of me.
saying you were sorry.
somehow, i accepted it.

and you are gone again.
for good.

and the above,
are typed out using past tense.

stella was dumb.
she must learn to be clever-er.

Friday, January 11, 2008

this page stays for 30 mins.
and is still blank.

somehow,
it doesnt come out as smoothly as it usually does.
i'm supposed to do well in this area.

to you in advance,
BEST of luck when you go over.
remember,
that stella will miss you.

the angel says go.
the devil says stay.
stella says go.

blink, and you'll see me.
just like i will blink,
and you'll be back.

you've created a story,
a impact,
right here in my life.
i wouldnt want the story to end.
even if it does,
i want to to be a happy one.

there are certain things,
that cant be spelled out.
but i know YOU will understand.
because YOU are YOU.

this will be me,
till the day you're back.

STELLA IS TRYING TO LEARN HOW TO BE HAPPY.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

5 January, 2008.

and my new year resolutions are not done.
disappointed.

At least i will try doing these in 2008.

1. To finish my diploma in Mass Communications.
Come on, Stella. Find the motivation.
You tried so hard to be in there.

2. To make sure everyday is spent worth while.
People are dying now and then,
I'm sure i do not want to leave this world just like that.
Even if i do, at least i've tried.

3. Maybe i should start getting thinner.

4. To appreciate everyone for every little things they do.
I guess i took them for granted. EVERYONE.

I wanted to include something about relationships in there.
But i guess, i'm still not up to it.

There, resolutions for the year, 2008.

Edit./ 5. Clair says. STELLA MUST LEARN TO BE HAPPIER.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

22nd December, 2007.
Kukup trip.
young aunties, uncles.
nieces, nephews.

loves all nieces, nephews. =)

first up,
jervis.
companion for the whole journey there.
laughters. =)