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argh..wat did i press??whatever..i have to type it all over again..fine..i'm so hell tired of this thing and i dont care bout it already lahz...it's all my fault ok.. i'm used to it remember..so u are always right lahz..happy...outsiders wont understand wat is really going on between us ok...we know the truth right there below our hearts.. whatever..i'm going to enjoy myself this holiday and work hard to prove my results.. everyone think she's good and i'm bad...that's it..but onli from the outlook..whatever.. i'm so used to being compared to others and my heart is becoming so hard that it cannot be melted again no matter wat u all do..i also dont expect u guys to do anything lahz.. ok...well...i dont know wat to say..argh..but i did enjoy myself yesterday night at the parkview bbq..thanks hor toot...the food was delicious had fun with those guys.toot clair and han xiang...seems that i'm always happy being with them...this phrase from HEY has affected a lot of things in my life: adapt to people's life and not people adapting to your lfe...it applies to a lot of things and i'm starting to begin to understand ppl's life..but but but but but y cant i jus understand ur life u would say..well.. u make me not to...

haix..i really wanna go with u guys tml..but i the end cant..haix..i'm upset too..ok.. haiyo..everything seems wronh..opps..ok..jus learned in HEY not to complain..haix.. whatever..i jus hope u guys enjoy yourself..ok...hmm..so..life jus goes on without u..so it's still the same...ok..get it..i dont need u in my life..and whatever nasty things i hear i odnt give a fucking damn...everyone has the right to say wat they want since their own mouths...whatever..i dont care anymore...btw..sorry ping..cant celebrate with u..ok..continue..hmm..so u see without me in ur life u are still happy or whatever.. jus think that whatever u say to her..talk cork lahz..stop the nonsense...burden to us?? excuse me..no one thinks this way and y are u thinking like that...whatever..who cares what u think anymore...seriously..i odnt know why it comes to this very stage..but u were the one who got so "excited" in the conversation the other day and u say i started first??omg..fine i understand lahz..it's always my fault..and i accept the fact of it..

fark fark fark fark fark fark fark fark fark...y are there so many farkers in my bloody life..i jus requested to go out..yup..requested...jus to celebrate my friend birthday.. wat is the problem..it's not as if i have a bloody major exam tml?? must i stay home.. y are u not giving me the freedom i want...fark lahz...i will bloody move out of the house..since u asked me to do it..give me the money lahz..fark lahz...mother farker.. whatever it is...i will not talk to u..please lahz..u are not so bog until i need to open my mouth and talk to u first right...farker...argh...feelin so bloody irritated by everything that happens...yup..and even jus a simple thing like playing cards.. so.. friends so sorry...these few days mood not good...try not to irritate me ok..argh.. bloody farker...so the problem lies with me blogging??u mean i shouldnt blog...y is it that blogging also gives me trouble...argh..i hate this kinda life...and i dont even feel like coming back to this bloody home everyday..what makes me feel this way.. mum i'm sorry...but u have to fucking dig ur bloody brain out shake it..and put it back so that it lets u feel better ok...argh...

haix...went to coffee bean with lay yan and hy today??was like enjoying so much..ok..school today was a disaster...didnt know y....well maybe it was the problem after all..everybody ask me me to talk to her..do this do that..ppl start giving me "that" face..well..cant help it if u want to..but i jus will not do it...i dont know wat is happening to me..maybe i'm becoming arrogant..or whatever...but jus accept it ok.. this is jus me lahz...cant take it then i jus have to say bye...haix...ok..so i got my dear dear liao..wow..jus like a few hours ago.it happend??wahahaha.. dont care.. so the problem is solved or not...i dont know wat i am supposed to do..BUT i will jus not talk to her bout it...y dont she do it vice versa...WHY

ok...so u gave me that face again today..or should i say innocent face..i dont bloody hell care whether u heard it or not ok...out good friends friendship is like "poof".gone.. please dont go and tell ppl that i did something wrong or it's my fault again..ppl start ignoring me for nothing...i know u are trying to get a lot of bloody attention and wants a lot of friends to keep u bloody company..so take all u want..i dont hell care anymore...dont be so bloody competitive cos u will regret it.. and dont be so hell paranoid...ok..bloody..haiyo..an average woman talks about 24,000 words a day..omg..believe and an average guy talks for 12,000 words a day..a woman is double it..omg..now u understand y i talk SO much and my mum too..wahaha..ok..back to the topic..i dont know wat is happening or whatever...but there's this voice right down my heart telling me not to give in...y is that happening??maybe i have tolerated for 4 years?? or wat the heck is happening..at this time...oh fuck...u have problems i have them too...but do i DISPLAY my feelings out..oh well..maybe for jus a LITTLE while.. this is jus human right...who is stronger..a person who is sad but dont cry or a person who is sad and cries...the..is the second 1 right..but dont u think u are displaying too much of ur emotions...i mean do u have to tell the WHOLE world that u're sad?? i dont know...whatever..it seems it's my fault now..MY FAULT..as usual lahz...so i have to accept it?? whatever.. everything that happens and goes wrong is my bloody fault and everything that goes well is ur credit..wat is the world happening to...now u accuse me of something else..oh my fucking god..wat is happening...cant someone tell me...cant u understand that i dont like it..argh..

Name: Stella Yap Hui Lin
School:Yusof Ishak Sec

Home: Bukit Batok
Working: if possible

HAVE Y0U EVER..

Wished you were dead?:YES!!totally

Had your heart broken?: the..stupid question


Lied to get what you want?:wahaha...yeah..i do

Loved somebody so much you'd do anything for
him/her?: of course lahz
Seen a movie star?:singer can??wahaha

Felt like killing someone?: yes
Lost someone you truly love?: then i so heart broken for wat


D0 Y0U..

Watch romantic shows?: excuse me..i'm a girl of course lahz
Cry a lot?:guess so

Smoke?: u say lehz

Drink?: drank before

Drive?: diao i how old
Do you drink and drive?: ....

Like anyone right now?: yah..him obviously
Love anyone right now?: the...
Sleep early at night?: wahaha..almost everyday

WHAT D0 Y0U..

Feel like doing right now?: hmm..eat clair's pizza??

Wish for every time you see a shooting
star?:can see mehz??
Want in life now?:him
Like most about yourself?:nothing??
Like to kiss?: u say lohz

Want your ex to end up with?:if they happy go on..
Favourite colour?:black, blue

Favourite number?: 7

Favourite place to chill
out?:orchard...home??

Ideal date like?: diao...
Favourite flavour?: wahaha..a lot

haix...i should not have believed u and gone to the bloody walk.. u left me all alone.. and everything seems to be my fault...am i in the wrong or wat..do i have to give in to u all the hell time...i dont like it ok...u have her u put me aside...but have u even thought how i feel...y do i have to give in to u all the time..excuse me...i also have feelings not like you mood swings all the time ok...ok lahz...i laugh with all of u..but do u actually know i'm sad inside..u claim to be my best best friend but do u know wat is bloody hell happening in my life..u onli care bout urs...but u didnt care bout mine.. u ask me did i bother to tell u..but y should i...it's my bloody problem and u dont have to fucking hell care bout me..leave me alone..and stop blaming me!!!

haix..i guess this is a wake up call for me?? i dont know...haix...i wanna die die die die die die die die die die die die die..who knows i will be dead next second next mintue next hour next day..well...jus remember to miss me my friends...ok..cos i guess i gonna miss u all like hell...the day we knew each other and play together..quarrel together...and doing all those stupid things like wat...haix...

yeah..went to sentosa yesterday...look at me now...red and black..haha..mr liu even call me a suckling pig..wahaha...hmm..had a lot of fun when i went there...yup.. neber go for a long time liao ma..haha...my whole body hurts a lot now..haix...my skin is gonna drop cos of sun burn..argh...it was jus so fun...and today..disaster...took back papers.. for 4 i onli pass 2 ok...and my english is like shit lohz..got 63 and it is a bloody grade 4..omg..wat am i gonna do...haix...my cheena got 71..combined science got 26..wahaha.. so high right..maths got 33..argh..kill me

ok..I"M HOME!! had a really fun time today..except for a little while..i'm real sorry girl..haix..lala make another person sad again...haix..but later also ok liao...ok.. we had a lot of fun going to kbox..and all like siao char bo..wahaha..i bet they wont disagree..had a cake..surprise for her!! i hope bong likes it...yup..i enjoy myself very much and i hope u girls did too..okie...another day will begin in about 4hour there.. and i will be at sentosa..haha...spending my day after exams like heaven..yup..i think i should enjoy myself and be serious when it comes to work...yup..imagine lala stuying.. cos u know y...i think i flunk a lot of things this year..i name it out.. chemistry.. physics...maths...dnt...so many ok..i hope i pass my humanities..cos i prepare a lot..yup and my english better dont fail ok...better dont...

going out soon...so jus blog quickly...going to kbox soon to celebrate bong bong birthday...beleated lahz..at least better than nothing right..hmm...hope we have a nice time and she like the present we give her lohz..lol..going to blog bout wat happen when i come home later...going to bath liao...tata..

..should i tell u that u are wrong...u cannot do this cannot that...i dont know...sth is bloody wrong in my life and i dont even know wat is it...fuck...i'm getting easily irritated these few days..so try not to irritate me...try not to ok..cos i will get real mad and REAL MAD...i will SCREAM INTO YOUR EARS!!! u know how loud my voice is... u know it...i can make ur ear drums explode ok...get it...so hurry fuck off..

fark u fark u fark u...i'm jus not going to the farking place ok..wat is the problem with u..do u always have to destroy my bloody good mood...fark u lahz...was i a VERY good mood today and u bloody hell destroy it..excuse me..got pms dont take it out on me.. farker...i hate it so bloody much..it's always like that and always my bloody fault..wat is the problem with ur fucking brain...damn lohz...u cant always think that u are right ok...to err is human dont u hell know it....fuck

haix...wat is life when it isnt boring..haix...omg...i'm so bored..and the fucking weatehr is making me like shit...am i going to sentosa with this weather??on wed..i hope not..dont wanna get sunburn ok...anyway tml bong bong birthday...haix..goin to celebrate it on tues..so i'm like busy??dont know..

this is me..omg..ok..i am a person who u can see my mood from..i am proud of myself?? am i spoilt...omg..shit..cant believe it..this is the real me..haha...whatever.. exams are ending soon and i so so so happy..onli left dnt and oral now..nothing to be worrying about except my oral..haix...

SCORPIO WOMAN
A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell
right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character.
A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.
She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Everything she does will look good, and she has all the women's tricks you can think of. She can manipulate men without them knowing it.
If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then
you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.
She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she
will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking, strong and healthy man especially if she starts to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career.
She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.
Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.
She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.
If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.
She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody".
If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

SCORPIO WOMAN
A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell
right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character.
A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.
She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Everything she does will look good, and she has all the women's tricks you can think of. She can manipulate men without them knowing it.
If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then
you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.
She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she
will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking, strong and healthy man especially if she starts to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career.
She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.
Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.
She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.
If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.
She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody".
If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

yup..hy birthday today..wanna tell her happy birthday to my one and onli HY!!!.. we went to pizza hut at jurong point were like a bunch of crazy kids..got me hy eugene su ping spohie faidzal lino and desmond...had a lot of fun..too bad cant post the pic here..haha..but i really enjoy myself today...destressed from the exams..haha... bought hy a esprit keychain..cost me quite a lot...haha...then bought gigi and wang yida cd... can say spend quite a lot today...haix..neber mind..hy happy can liao...

haix....night..so fast...learning my geography...haix...hope i can pass this time..haix.. my mum still nagging..call me a bastard a bitch..i dont give it a fucking damn...u are the one who make me cold-hearted..get it or not... i'm fine with it ok... FUCK!!

haix...doesnt she know that nagging is not good for her and her children...shit... i hate it when she starts nagging...i will not pack my room ok...i like it to be cosy like that..it makes me think of..haa..u know...whatever...i will not and i repeat will not pack my room...take it or leave it..asking me to move out..i will if i have the money..y dont u give me some...in future maybe will return lahz..i dont know..whatever.. i'm so freakin stressed up by the bloody exams and when i come home...i dont get comfort but jus tupid nagging...haix...who am i going to survive...argh...1 day i kill myself...it's all ur fault...u will regret losing a daughter like me ok...haix...no freedom...i love my room...as much as i love his..haix...so cosy..haha...neber mind..something is wrong with my template pic..shit and i cant find a nice 1...damn..wat am i going to do?? shit..problems come when i not ready...bully me ar...jus bloody kiss my ass...

haix....shouldnt be here right at home...argh...should be out wor...haix... so boring right now..thought my kor go out no one snatch with me computer liao.. but my cousin come and wanna play the com...argh...so angry...damn lohz..haix.. exams period..dont know wat to do...study?? no..lala dont study will go bonkers de...

haix...had my english exam today...damn...it was like shit...passage B was so freaking difficult lohz...the whole passage need to read so many freaking times lohz...shit..so angry....haix....compo also..dont know wat tupid topic they give...wat doors lahz...how to have a happy family...shit lohz...fuck...haix.. guess i will flunk it this year...

sunday sunday...boring day..going to rot at home today...wondering wat i can do later on...tml is english paper...both wor...argh...a little nervous bout it..haha.. haix....have to real study hard for this up coming mid year exam...

haix...jus came back from kash birthday..dont know y i was so excited to go there..should have went out instead...she was like entertaining her friends lahz... maybe we were not so important....haix..whatever...jus realised maybe to me onli lahz...i think me and clair actually have the same sort of character..haha.. i finally have my adidas perfume...thanks bong...haha...went to westmall and someone was killed...argh...i think i saw the leg...argh...imagine...damn... first was hy then me...shit...wat is the world happening to...

haha...going out later to kash birthday...a little excited cos neber see her for years..haha...was supposed to go out with bong and toot now de...but cos my mum say onli can go 1 of course see kash right...haha...now watching SHE.. guess they are not so suitable to sing live...haha...