THE ONE.
call me stel.
call me lala.
call me STELLA.
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Thursday, November 29, 2007
i heard my dad say,
when someone nags at you,
when someone irritates you,
when someone's trying to make you angry

GO TO BED.

simple.
sleep.




it's breaking up.

kl sent me this email.

Thoughts of her still lingers,
And it kills him inside.
Her face still haunts him,
But he choose to hide.

He really misses her,
But what can he do?
He can't help it,
Althought he tried so hard.

He need her here with him,
But she's so far away,
He still long to hold her,
Even though she broke his heart that day.

He'll never stop loving her,
He thought she was the one for him,
But why did she has to go and prove?
That they just can't be?

She said she wanted him for life,
But then she broke his heart,
Stole a part of him away,
Leaving him so lost & lonely.

He had put away all her pictures since the night she walked away,
And only now mustered up some strength to look at one today.
Those beautiful smiles, those happy memories,
Simply melted his heart. making him feel even more remorseful.

Its been so long since they last chatted.
Its been so long they said, 'Baby, Hows your day?'
So why this sudden email?
He has no idea either.
Tracing back all the memories.
Suddenly it all became so clear.

She must be thinking,
This email had came too late,
As everything related to this guy,
She could have already given up, she's moved on.

And for guy whom loved her tender,
Looking into the girl's eyes in the photo,
As his fingers go round her face and whispered,
'I Love You'. He shed a silent tear..

To the girl in the photo,
Wherever you are, Whatever you do,
May Lord grant you happiness this day and Forever..

I Miss You.

Monday, November 26, 2007
25th July, 2003.
4 years plus.
1256 days.

it has never changed.
it's always about you.
everyone is sick of it.

"Stella, so long already!"

yes i know,
so long.
4 damn bloody years.
how come he's still here.

i lie.
i cant move on.
because of you.

every song i hear,
i see your image,
right there.



yes i was "young".
yes you left.
yes i was naive.
yes to everything.
even i miss you.

you left,
like i used to say,
i'm stuck at that very place.

i still see that keyboard,
the one which my tears dried on.



if you could use $1 to buy the date of your death, would you?
i would.
i wouldnt be using the excuse
to spend time with my family,
to spend time with my friends,
to do the things i love.
instead,
i would find you
and give you a BIG hug.
a hug which you wouldnt like,
a hug for you to think,
a hug for me to remember,
a hug to replace all these years.

it never mean a thing to you,
it means a lot to me.

i thought you disappear,
but you appear on the bus.

i thought you changed,
but you looked the same.

we used to talk about having dogs at home.
you have one now.
i have none.

all grown up,
no more "i hope you'll come back."
instead, i hope you'll be happy.

i hope i will too.

just a hug?


Sunday, November 25, 2007
how can i not love them.
dance moves: the best of all
lyrics: memorised like it's the back of my brain




23 may.
yes i know.

every year,
i've to silenty remind myself,
it's your birthday.

happy birthday to a very special you,
in silence.

Saturday, November 24, 2007
i've got something to say.
but it doesnt come out.


the dream is getting far.
i'm getting tired.

tell me we can turn back in time.
tell me we can be who we are.
tell me we can say anything.
tell me you're back.


THE POWDERGIRLS UNITE.

Sunday, November 18, 2007
when friends start being together,
we do silly things.
but only with friends,
silly things happen.







Saturday, November 17, 2007
how can i not fall in love?






Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Temperament
Flexible
Nothing seems to bother you - you sail through life crisis free. It's not that your life doesn't have its ups and downs, it's just that you handle everything without unnecessary drama and antics. You approach each day fresh, not worrying about yesterday or tomorrow. You are confident that you can handle anything that comes your way and experience has shown that you are absolutely right about this.


Interests
Simple
You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.


Amusement
Adventurous
It's a good thing that you are filled with energy and ambitions (that others sometimes find exhausting) because you're continually looking for a new adventure and exciting experience. You struggle with a continual feeling of restlessness which constantly pushes you to the next level of excitement. Once you have accomplished one thing, you are eager to accomplish something more exciting, riskier and distinguishable.


Passion
Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.



this is me.
in fb's world.
sick.
sick.
strepsils to numb the throat.
how bad can it go.

Sunday, November 11, 2007
and it goes back all the way to 7 years ago.
when we started going to a new school,
meeting new people, making new friends.
*Sec. 2 and 4 still digging. =)

Sec. 1.
Formal photo was normal.
Candid was the time everyone went mad.
"Should we twist our fingers together?"
"Should we hug each other?"
We started to discuss for identical poses.
Click. before you even decide on it.





Sec.3
Everyone decided using fingers will have the best effect.






Sec. 5
Fingers were still there.
But it was the bond that pulled us together.
It was a tough year for everyone.
We managed to survive, till now. =)





5A&5B.
i remember how we had to "beg" the photographer for him to take this photo.
everyone had to promise to buy a copy.




we started with, "you're from 5A!", "Eh, you 5B one, go back to your class!"
arguements of course,
plus the class notice board competition (which results never come out),
we enjoyed the process no matter what.
Teachers' day celebration,
when both classes "merged" to be one.
Taking umbrellas, dancing, singing along.

WE BECAME ONE BIG CLASS, THE SEC FIVES.

National day celebration, where WE had to bring the whole school to sing along,
with silly actions to complete the whole picture.





I'M HAPPY HAPPY TO MEET THIS WHOLE GROUP OF FRIENDS.
PEOPLE WHO I PROCEED TO CALL THEM,

MY LOVES. =)

certain things make you happy.
certain people make you happy.

these people make me happy.
i label them as loves. =)

4 yrs, 7 yrs and counting.
don't ask how to maintain.
loves stick and continue.

i love them to bits!
pictures cannot describe the happiness behind the smiles.
not being able to see them everyday,
pictures will do for now. =)
















with loves eating our loves. =)






favourite picture of all. =)
before and after.
credits to clair. =)





HEART MY LOVES.





therefore,
i can't cry.

i love my friends.
super love.


photos updating soon. =)

Sunday, November 04, 2007
how many times do you feel like crying,
but you have to control the tears there.

i feel like crying,
yet i hold on.

with no particular reasons,
yes, say i'm mad.
say whatever you want.

dont even bother.

leave all you want.

but that particular you,
please stay.

i cant stay strong.
i cant always be happy.
i dont always jump around.

without you.


i'm not your pillar after falling.
i'm not your warmth, when you're cold.

you know i will be there.
so you got used to it.
once,
twice,
thrice.
i gave in.
i cant be there forever.

were your shoulders for me too?