Friday, July 22, 2005
was everything my mistake.i shouldnt even be here.
you shouldnt even give birth to me.
you made me
and made my life suffer.
you said it was my fault.
and part of the missing hp was because of me.
you shouted and asked him to scold me.
he did.
i dropped tears.
i didnt have the energy to argue.
i am very tired of it.
fuck whoever took my phone.
you made my life more terrible than usual.
as if i have not enough troubles.
i wonder whether you were guilty
when you asked whether i wanted a new phone.
i rejected.
not because i was stubborn.
i just didnt want it.
you werent sincere.
he said to use his phone.
i didnt want it too.
fake people all around.
thanks chian ru for making my nails beautiful.
i will kepp them till monday.
if i can and i'm still alive.
cousin's wedding tomorrow.
wonder if he's nervous now.
excited. best event.
one day,
when i'm dead.
i will laugh in hell,
at the way you're crying,
telling me how much you love me.
maybe you wouldnt even do that.
i'm dead.