Tuesday, May 24, 2005
ok. i'm sad over getting 17.stella doesnt mean it when i say i am not bloody sad.
it means a lot to me when i've got 6.
BUT it wasnt meant to be mine.
was a little shocked when she said, "Stella, come come. I've got something important to tell you."
ok.woah. a BIG surprise. didnt have to blame anyone.
have to blame totally on myself. "You are not stupid, Stella."
thats what i hear from lots of people, though some may think likewise.
Ok. I'm not stupid. BUT i'm dumb when it comes to MATHS!!!
i dont hate the subject.
because when you hate the subject, you can NEVER win it.
though this phrase has been in my mind, i will never do it.
cause i just seem to hate it. *SHRUGS* upon hearing it.
So, in conclusion , STELLA IS SAD TO SAY I'VE GOT 17!!
and i know some will come to me,
"Stella, you know you can do it!!"
yes, i do know it. i know i have the talent to flop my maths and do well in english.
BUT when i saw my english marks this term, it went : "OH MY GOD?"
disappointed. i have said this umpteen times,
and i am supposed to improve on it.
blame it on myself for disagreeing with ms ng's way of teaching.
maybe i should use her style. and score like lay yan.
it's the worst english marks i have ever scored.
maybe not as worst as term one as i failed.
never pin hopes on me. i will crash them ALL.
that's very true. because my parents have experienced it.
high hopes on me this year. because you guys dont give me stress and goes,
"I know you can do it. I will not give you stress this year like i gave you for your Ns.
Our family's face depends on you. Show our relatives you can do it like the past."
right. i know i have done it in the past(not boasting) and have got MANY prizes.
But that doesnt mean that it remains the same for Os.
you dont bloody know the stress because you dont study the same things.
i dont want tuition but it will add burden and i know it.
therefore, dont say i didnt give you stress. because i will feel even worst.