Friday, May 27, 2005
broke down. finally after hanging on for a long time.i wasnt so strong after all.
i was very upset over it.
and just act strong. dumb me.
i am a dumb person.
once again, she irritates me.
and has succeeded again.
she pissed me off every single day.
this is not the way i want you to care for me.
i have put mrs m words into my mind,
instead of yours.
are you ashamed?
i am not going to hate you,
it's just wasting my energy.
you just have to know,
you WILL NOT HAVE to interfere in my life anymore.
except for wasting your 327 bucks.
"WE WILL NOT PAY FOR YOUR EDUCATION IF YOU GO TO ITE."
"I DONT CARE. IF YOU DONT PAY, I WILL PAY FOR MYSELF. YOU DONT HAVE TO SAY IF SINCE YOU ARE SO CONFIRMED OF ME GOING TO ITE. YOU DONT HAVE TO BE CONCERNED ABOUT MY LIFE."
*door slams*
marvellous. this holiday sucks.
is sleeping till 9am late?
she even complains about the slightest thing.
i can understand that you are not working,
doesnt know ANYTHING about the society outside,
and doesnt have any friends,
but you do not have to find a small thing,
to quarrel with me.
i feel very irritated to be at home.
i hate coming home.
i hate to hear your rantings.
you know you always succeed.
let me win once.
give me money and i will move out.
I SWEAR.
though swearing is a sin,
i cannot stand it anymore.
be glad i do not swear right in your face,
thats when our relationship is over.
you do not want that to happen.
i am already very tired.
let me rest.
i will be glad that you let me win just for one day.
do not be too selfish and take all 24 hours.
life sucks when it comes to you.
you never know whats going on in my mind.
you should update on the ways to know your kids mind when they get older,
such that you cannot control them.
i dont know whether to feel sad for you,
or have what feelings towards you.
whenever i see you,
i feel like shuting myself.
i shut myself in the room whenever there's a need to.
you should go for counselling courses.
should i apply for you?
i feel so terrible everyday.
it's a dread to go home.
sad life.