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it's becoming strange when i see her. no more passion and those crazy feelings.
and it's just 8.05 now. been online for 3 hours? bored. yes i know. exams are coming and i should start getting my books and reading everything. no mood.
does it matter whether you know it's literal inference or paraphrasing? doesnt stay a strong place in me. sometimes teachers arent always right. and we know it.





ARGH.

speech day is over. should be the last time i see him. he's fatter as what ms ng says. saw him going home with her. sad. thats so sad. wasnt happy though i was smiling through all those photos. give me a shoulder to cry. thats all i need.
"it will pass, whatever it is, whoever it was." <--- said by mrs mitchell to me on msn. she's a nice person. it will pass eventually i know. but when will it happen? will his image get off my mind next minute or tomorrow or next month? tell me specifically what to do. i need instructions. instructions to erase him and how to avoid him. when will he stop coming to school? thought it was great when he finally graduated from school. but it wasnt what i expected. it's still him occasionally in school. ok. the marvellous PA cant do without him so he's back. so shouldnt the PA close down or give it to him? so that he can handle all the cases. wonder what the CCA teaches them.

Michael Learns to Rock - You took my heart away
Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

Chorus: You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
you are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

Chorus:You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
you gave me everthing
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here where we stand
we'll never be alone

i'm a fool to be still in love with you. read someone's friendster and everything. his name appear. suddenly felt sad. feel like crying. haven seen him for a long long time. it's funny. i know it's stupid, to like him. he's dumb, he's ugly, he's not the perfect man one would want him. but i just want him back. maybe it's just a dream. stella dreams everyday over things that will not come true which makes me even sadder. sad life i've got. alright. i have a happy life. lay yan says to be happy everyday. if i say that, it's the fake me. i know there's hope in life and someone else special waiting for me in some part of the world. but for now, i dont see anyone. except my parents and brother( i hope) who truely loves me. and in return i will try to love him A LOT. I WILL TRY, I PROMISE. him. when is the end of this. i have said it for a long time and didnt do it at all. do i really want to get him outta my mind. i can. maybe for a few days and it comes back again. argh. i can say i dont like it and not do anything. but this time round, i wanna try doing something.


SAMANTHA MUMBA-Always Come Back To Your Love
Show me where I belong tonight.
Give me a reason to stay.
No matter if I go left or right.
I always come back to love your love

I've been up and down.
Been going round and round.
I've been all over town.
But I'll never find somebody for sure

Show me love tonight.
I'm going to left to right.
No matter where I go.
Always find your love

I've been high and low.
I don't know where to go.
Cause I love you so.
And I'll never ever find someone like you for sure

Show me where I belong tonight.
Should I go left or right.
I always come back to your loving, baby.
Show me I where I belong tonight.

Should I go left or right.
I always come back to your love

haven got a clue over why i come online everyday. it's seems so meaningless. gonna spend all these time on my studies. do ten years series!!! every teacher says that. have to try. if not last minute will be dead.
school's fine. just know that i have to stay for dnt tml. dead shit. cant wait for speech day.

everyday, tons of homework. never ending. tml, geo and chinese test. chinese teacher doesnt seem to like me. during remedial today, "hui lin!!!! remember to stay to 7 today because you have not finish your work!!!" omg. 7. ok. stella escaped from it. not say escaped. even people who have done lesser than me went home. so why cant i? am gonna study for geo and chinese soon. and i hope i will really do it. alright. more people are using friendster blog and i'm happy bout it. which means lesser people using blogger and xanga. yipee. haa. i am evil. alright. she's back. feel VERY GLAD. been worried for like 1 week? yes. stella can be very emotional too. take good care of yourself.