Tuesday, March 22, 2005
decided to change my blogskin after much consideration. wanted a more simple one. tada. thats it. chosen to be one of the chairperson for the debate next week. reaction: whatever.gossiping is around us everywhere. no one can ever stop it. when you hear good friends gossiping about each other what can you say? it makes me speechless. came across this pair of pals who were gossiping bout their friends. poor guy who knew nothing about this.
was quiet in class. been thinking bout something. not about him even though i know i always do that. there's this thing going through my mind now and then. how do you guys treat your friends? everyone equally or differently. friends as in friends. not people who you dont bother even though they are your friends. friends as in together with them almost everyday. do you talk to each of them in a different tone or same for everyone. for me, i think i speak differently to everyone. why bother to speak so nice to you when you dont even understand a single word i say? never mind. am i just a "thing" there that is taken for granted. i hope i am not. you treat me differently each time i see you. you give me cold shoulders, i dont mind. because i know humans will have bad mood. you shout at me at times, i treat as if you were pissed and needed to let it off. when your other friend is back, i am just thrown aside. I AM ALSO A HUMAN. WHEN YOU WANT OTHERS TO THINK OF YOUR FEELINGS, THINK OF THEIR FEELINGS FIRST. this is so disappointing. i also thought of you as someone i can tell my troubles and secrets to. but you made me so upset. alright. take it that i'm paranoid and ignore me forever.
i am always sad. you guys know it. you guys know me as a hyper-active girl. i laugh like hell. and when i'm moody, everyone says that stella's showing off her attitude. or i hear comments like "why is she showing me her attitude?" alright. for others, you can show your attitude and whatever you want. for stella, she must always be a hyper and cheerful. please stop being naive. stella is also a human. not someone on earth to entertain you. when i'm noisy you ask me to shut up. when i'm quiet, you ask me what happen to me. and goes around telling everyone stella is crazy. FINE. take it that stella is always moody. this is me. i am like that at home. unless there's a need to talk and laugh, or else i will shut. that's just me. remember that stella is always moody and none of her relatives like her because she has a glum face.