Tuesday, October 12, 2004
yes...she's gone..4 years past and it is like we just knew each other..yes..i am upset..well clairin u are right..i am jus bloody heartless...i neber expect myself to keep my butt stuck on the bloody damn chair...ok...u gave her a hug...and i wanted to..but i jus cant seem to allow myself to stand up..i dont know why..it was the second time i felt so sad to have a friend going again..and i may neber see her again..thats the problem...yes..i wanna stab myself..if i was her, i am going to be so damn upset about my friends...and me too..UPSET BOUT MYSELF...y did i turn out to be such a big dissappointment...whatever..yes clairin i told you and i am going to say it...I LOVE YOU!! lol..yes...because she gave me zax card..lol..yes..i am very grateful..well..sorry to disappoint you[which i know i have] and sorry to myself...for being such a "wonderful" friend...