Friday, August 13, 2004
haix...after all those fun today at yuki yaki with mei su sien and tsz fai....day at home is fucking damn upset..i was jus late for home like 20 mins? and she started scolding like hell as if i was not home for one whole night..oh fuck it...maybe i wasnt supposed to scold her this but u forced me to.. after all those stress i get from school i still have to face your white face everyday hearing u saying i wont get up to sec 5 no need study so hard...i mean wat the fuck...is that wat a mother would do?? shouldnt a mother be concerned whether her daughter is bloody stressed up right now and ask her to take a good damn rest..instead of asking her to stop studying and discouraging her...wat the fuck...i knew i was better in the results last time after all you "groom" me u said...but wats the point now...no meaning in life ok..i looked happy outside onli to know i dont have a heart inside...why am i like that?? why am i so depressed everytime a small mistake goes wrong...why am i scolding vulgarities when i didnt use to last time...why am i so hell stubborn now...why why why..it's all ur damn bloody fault...dont think urself as a perfect angel dropped from heaven..i think u are a devil who came up from hell...to err is human.. have you ever heard of this?? i bet not cos u are perfect in ur own eyes....do i have to listen to wat u said like i did in the past and care for your feelings..NO you are not the person whom i knew..u are jus a bloody hyprocrite...do u get it...hell...if this is the kinda life i have..i rather you didnt give birth to me..since people hate me..you hate me and even i hate myself...u stab a knife right into my heart without even giving me time to write my will and saying goodbye to the one i love...wat's the point of living in this world?? maybe HEY has taught us how to be proactive but in this case can i be that?? no...hell NO...i dont see the point to having to respect you again..u threw the trust again..
