Wednesday, March 31, 2004
I HATE FUCKING PEE!!! and she sucks totally..argh..she hasnt start teaching and i was talking to all my friends u know..different class ma...then everyone talks..she fucking hell scolds me ok she says i yank yank yank...fuck you lahz...as if u are wat..trying to treat me nice later..oh please fuck off...you are jus a fucking pee..so wat if people respect you...including my kor..so wat..wat's the big deal? i mean do u deserve our respect...wat do u fucking hell treat us in class...i think we are jus a piece of shit to you right...then you are jus a whatever fucking person to the rest of us...you jus like guys...and when they make noise so u scold them...well maybe sometimes BUT girls are all the time...hell...so i deserve to have a hell teacher like you..argh..i think u rather kill me then have me in your lesson ok...cos i guess i will make hell for you...haix...shity...she spoils my day...argh...jus bought wang xin ling new disc...she's like woah...change.. is so pretty(at least better then last time)... haha...think her disc should be nice...came home today thought my mum would stop nagging but she didnt..still continue..haha...think i should learn to appreciate her nagging huh...haha...haix...whatever happens life also have to go on right...this is jus my life so i have to accept it...fine.
Friday, March 26, 2004
haix...sort of a little touched by ms rehana today...ok...we had HEY today and we were supposed to sit in a big circle and pass our paper around for ppl to write their comments on us and onli positive cos ms rehana say so..haha.. ok she big ma...ok..then we pass pass pass lahz...then lay ee ya know the bitch wrote so many negative stuff bout ppl...and ppl were treating her so fucking good lohz...they neber say negative stuff bout her lohz...ok fine..then i was like fuck!! u know...my reponse is also so damn big lahz...then haha...ok so ms rehana know liao...then after HEY she was talking to lay ee i think bout this damn fucking thing...then rashidi was 1 of the victims she wrote then ms rehana asked lay ee apologise lahz...haha...then i said that if lay ee have to apologise to hmi then she has to apologise to many ppl lohz...correct ma then fair right..whatever...ok...so funny...then ms rehana hug her lohz..haha.. then ask us hug her oh fuck who would wanna do that...my god..whatever..then lay ee cry but i think ms rehana is very kind and not bad lohz..a very nice teacher...ok whatever...every comment that i have is all the same..haha.. laugh a lot talk a lot...blah blah..all same de..haha...haix..sian...
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
haix...jus finish writing a letter fer him ya know...yah ok...haix... will be the last one lohz...cos i dont think i should "fan" him with all my fucking irritating problems right? whatever...wished him best of luck for his everything.. haix.. found out that Lay yan can be an affectionate guy...But her shouldn't regret things that he has done lohz...ok lay yan... to me...i believe that whatever you do in ur life,you think it's good for yourself.since it's good fer you,go on with life...dont turn back and say u regret what u did last time...what fer regret when you've already done it right...aiya dont know lahz...i think some ppl in my class should jus like please know how to take care of ur fucking life before you start to care about people lohz...please shut the fuck up cos u are jus so fucking irritating..i jus dont get it..wat's so nice to act beng about and act big in class...so wat if u are in fucking ncc??i dont give it a fucking damn..dont think u are big there then u are big in class...n stop shouting lohz..cos u will jus make ppl hate ya more...u know..i guess u will neber get this in ur fucking brain...right...whatever who gives a damn bout ya...
Saturday, March 20, 2004
haix...went out yesterday..bought like many things..haha..got a water bottle and a body shop lip balm..haha...something i want most the lip balm...but i jus cant find the lip stick brush...argh...then went out with clair and toot today.. my god...went to red earth...saw the brush but i cost a bloody 25 bucks...kiss my ass man...argh..so didnt buy it...then went to kino and bought shopaholic ties the knot...haha...the book that i look for a long time...argh...then was a little boring lohz...today...argh...wanted to see 5566 tml but instead went out with him and like sort of wasted my time?? argh...spent most of the time seeing ppl play ball??...argh...damn...argh...so angry..damn lohz...i hate it...so feeling damn freaking sad now lohz...argh.. i dont know i jus wanna see them..that is my plan lohz...argh...guess i will jus be home and complete my homework?? ijus know i haven finish it lohz... argh...damn
Wednesday, March 17, 2004
haix....boring...she jus makes me pissed...haix...sian lahz...u know the way my brother talks to you..you dont like right..it's jus the way u talked to me lahz... get it moron..bitch..i dont care whether u are reading this or not...u get this right...fuck off lohz...haix...so boring...hy is off to camp and i'm so boring.. starting to miss her..haix...
Monday, March 15, 2004
omg..i cant believe this is happening to me...i'm sick and i cant go out to enjoy with my friends tml??my god..how long have i waited for this day?...damn.. wat am i going to do...stop begging me...i also wanna go right...argh...damn i hate it...y do i have to be sick this time...damn...hy came my house today...and my. she's crazy jus like me...can be happy can be moody...stop be sad over a guy. opps i should be telling myself that too..haha..whatever....i dont know... i also wanna go sentosa lohz...should i...i dont know..i jus wanna go u know... u jus dont know how it is to enjoy with friends especially with my crazy friends... still there's no one to care for me...fine..i dont know no one..i jus want him...him... argh..jus cant get over him...argh..
Sunday, March 14, 2004
haix...boring...haix...sick and haven recover..damn thought bloody holiday is here and can play the whole week...but hell??..argh... no one here to care for me...argh..no one...y not?? damn..i miss him i miss him i miss him... will he be there for me, i wonder??haix...i doubt so...haix...boring...and i hate it...do i have to stay home and be a pathetic person...argh...who's here to care for me... would that you come soon...argh...no one but u can..u are the onli 1 who understands me...do u know that...argh...u bitch...dont give me your bloody attitude cos i dont care whether i have u as my friend ok...get it..this is where u are in my heart....no fucking place left for this fucking you...ok...happy..damn.. i hate you...dont think everyone owes you in this bloody world ok...get it...and y are u not fucking getting out of my fucking life...argh...i totally hate you ok...argh...
Friday, March 12, 2004
haix...sian..have a fever right now and it's like 38degrees plus plus?? who's there to care for me...no one ok...i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss him.. argh...we were like total strangers when we saw each other...argh... i hate this feeling...and i got back my damn report card and omg..badly done...guess i was playing too much lohz...haix...guess i influence u hy..i'm sorry..remember when u are talking to him...be patient and calm ok...serious...then both of u can work things out...ok...listen to me..got any troubles come find me ok...i will always be there for ya...but who's here for me??
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
haix....depressed..and so i'm the depression club secretary haha...whatever.. haix...been depressed after i found out that i sort of fail my this term i got 14 points lohZ..what will happen to me tomorrow...i dare not think ok...fuck... and i was like crying the whole day...haix...DEPRESSED!!! haix...i dont know u all can take it calmly but i jus cant cos i not u...get it...thanks for making me laugh..thanks for bring such a good and true friend...thanks...haix... freaking hell we are going to get our report books tml and i dont want to...argh... depressed...argh...kill me now...before i kill myself...damn..i jus cant take it anymore....argh...too much stress...argh...kill me now and i will be grateful to u..thanks...
Monday, March 08, 2004
haix...such a fucking person...y does she have so many damn problems every term,every day every single minute...hell her...first is me and her problem then is her bloody books problem...excuse me bitch if u dont have so many enemies, y are your books all missing?? haha...when i put my discman in my bag, i can go out of the class ad come back safely with my discman in my bag...ok... see i dont have enemies..u have things missing all the times u should bring your bag every fucking place you go ok...such a fucker...damn you...haix... knew nothing about maths today..lay yan i hate you...u "hai" me...haha...fine neber mind i'm not as petty as some ppl...haha...haix...sian...
Saturday, March 06, 2004
haix...sian...felt my science over all...onli got 40/100 lohz...so damn poor lohz...damn upset..all because all the bloody physics lohz...so sad man..haix... thought i can pass my science again...argh..damn...tml maybe going to the swimming pool with raihan lohz....a bit boring lohhz...haix...sian..nothing to do now lohz...going to take progess card next week and have 1 wekk holiday liao so fast wor...haix...so fast argh...seems like n level will reach very soon...haix.. a little worried lohz...went to see dabate yesterday...haha...quite nice... quite onli lohz not very...haix...i hate ur freaking attitude lohz...y do u always think of urself onli and i have to get in to you...why???u are jus a fucking u lohz...moron...i hate u...u have to change urself lohz..and not asking ppl to change themselves ok...u have to adapt to ppl and not ppl adapt to u lohz...get it ma...haix...tired le lahz...not many bloody problems these few days...haix...TATA
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
haix...fucking bitch...trying to find trouble again...but jus wanna tell ya if u wanna find trouble with me u can jus forget bout it ok...u bitchy woman... haix...cant believe it and i pass my geography haha...first time in my life...if i pass my humanities this term i will...hmmm...let me think first haha... haix... hong yin so happy that u called me yesterday and talked to me for such a long time...i'm totally depressed if u dont know...haix.TOTALLY DEPRESSED!! because of problems by my tupid friend(wondering if she's still mine) and she's treating as if we only have her problem lohz...jus fuck off lahz ok...u dont deserve my concern lohz...haix...sad sad...tml having a debate and imagine my enemy is my beloved HONG YIN!!! argh...damn cant help it it's fated lohz..haha...anyway wish u good luck ok...haha...dont worry.. my team is very strong haha..enough for u right...haix...depressed depressed this is not me...confirm lohz...haix...didnt expect myself to be like that ok..i didnt know y...he sms me and hurt me a lot lohz...it really hurts me...he sms me and ask me whether i was another woman..i think i say before but dont care it really hurts me a lot lohz...as if he knows...haix...TATA...
Monday, March 01, 2004
从前，一个人的时候，我并不感觉寂寞,直到爱上你以后，每当无法即时拥抱你的那一刻，我才深深地了解什么叫孤独。...this is wat i truly truly feel now...haix...wat makes me real upset was he sms me yesterday and ask if i was another woman..as in he asked whether i was this this that that woman..not going to mention the name...after reading that i was so damn pissed...haix...how can he like...aiya...whatever.. maybe i should really give up on him i think...dont u think so..it's been 3 years if i'm not wrong... i think i should lohz...haix...give me some advice man...jus fuck me lahz...kill me...argh....damn lohz...she didnt come to school today..haha..no quarrels no nothing...opps...got something...PEACE!!! haha..real peace man..didnt hear her voice was such a pleasure ok..haha...i dont mean to be evil or wat...but it's the truth lahz..believe it or not..haha...i'm just a bad evil and bitchy woman..ok.. haha..it's jus me..cant change it the whole life...cant help me when all my friends around me are "pa" as in professional aunties..haha... ok..fine can feel people coming to smack me..haha...ok lahz..gotta go lahz..TATA..
爱，是一种感觉，没有人能够为你证明，必须倾听自己的声音，才能知道它究竟存不存在。